Oh dear..

Man, I should really figure about updating this more often. And I guarantee you that that isn't the last time That'll be said.
Maybe I should put this specific site in my favorites so I remember to write in it more often. 'Snot like I don't enjoy this place [Well..The HTML coding confuses me still] but I think I don't update it as much because I've already got a journal I write in in real life and a Xanga on top of that. Geez. Except, Xanga I only update once or maybe twice a week and The real life journal all I do is rant about the same freakin' thing.
And the cherry on top: A teenager who actually pays attention in school and lives in the middle of nowhere and barely talks to anybody even though she's universally accepted doesn't equal up to an all that interesting lifestyle. All in all, not much to blog about. Or, daily at least.
And I don't want to say things'll get any more interesting once I get into a college life because I don't even know if I want to go to college yet.
I know I'm perfectly capable of doing so--and that's where I get scared. I don't really know If I'm capable at the same time. I think Talking about it would jinx me. My grade in Biology isn't the best the last time I checked..and that's worried me. My grades in general aren't the best in the world. Or, at least, in my eyes they're not. I could be doing better. It's just things distract me so.. To start off, Typos. The bother me and I'm prone to them.
That's just one of many things that bother me. And the thought that I don't really have much of a life. That bothers me a little bit too.
My dad. That's another thing that's been bothering me a lot. I haven't seen any sign of him lately and it has worried me more than anything..Even grades in school.
It bothers me even more to know that it is very well possible that he could be dead. Believe you me, I wish I was kidding.
There are other things that bother me, like people, but they'll remain unspoken of.
[Geek moment: Much like Alyx Vance from Half Life 2 {I told you Geek moment; you've been warned} My father is the single most important person to me and I don't really know what I'd do knowing he's not there {or not knowing whether he's there or not, which is my current state.}]
Okay.

EDIT: Alright, I've gone and checked my grades..Only one of them is at an A mark, which is Safety ed..which you'd have to try to fail. Biology is at a C [73% And History's even worse, a 70%] And English is at an 88% But that's because I know what I'm doing in that class.. Oh man..That does not leave me in a very good mood. I basically screwed up a test about..Cells i think? 53 or something out of 80. Oh..a high D. yay.
But I don't blame myself, what with being distracted and all. And in History we for the past week have been researching things for our Research paper that's due before winter break. We've had the laptops the past couple class days and I did NOTHING. And I proud of that? Hell no. But I'll admit I did have fun. But since my teacher's grading us on researching That's not going to help me much of at all. Oh crap. Usually I'd have something to back me up and keep me happy, Like, something saying "Oh well, at least it's not like we've...Blah blah..." But I don't have anything. I've really hit a rut.
And I've also reminded myself that I've got to get some research done for the retarded paper. I don't even have a thesis statement written and the whole thing [ALL SIX PAGES] is supposed to be thesis driven. I've really got to get doing that....
as for Biology, I think I'm hopeless. I'm right-brained and Biology is a left-brained course. Basically. We've got another CLA coming up and, according to my Biology teacher, the first CLA we did she walked us through.
Ohhhhh Hell.
400 points for that freaking CLA coming up. Fun...
You know what I think is ironic? In the beginning of the year, that Biology teacher said that her grade would be the best we would ever get in a science course.
I've had better than a 73. I'll tell you that right now.