The sight'll make ya sick.

So, Yesterday was cold. What else is new...

Many aspects were thought of yesterday while out eating with mom. Even though I was laughing at the other tables.
Subjects like moving out of that matchbox..or.....house?
I had made a bet of $150 that we wouldn't be out of that house by The start of the next school year. Or, by the time I get a license.

I highly doubt we'd get out of that house. we're supposed to be out of there already.
Whatever.
It really gets to me that Where I live is one of the main causes of my subtle depression.
I hate it.
I guess mom thought I was angry at her or something yesterday because she gave me a whole discussion that and turned into a silent argument about how "No matter what situation you're in at my age you're going not hate it and think it sucks but when you're older you'll learn to appreciate it and etc. etc. etc."
THERE'S NO WAY I WILL EVER BE ABLE TO APPRECIATE THIS.
This is my hell now. But It'll be over in a minute.
I'll have to talk to dad about giving me the Element, There's no fucking way I'm getting a stupid Honda Civic. This isn't greed. Fully.
It's plans.
Monday April 27th: Go to get Learner's permit.
I don't yet have a calender that show's October So whatever.
I've already been told that one step lower than where we are right now is living on the street.
I don't approve of that.

"Don't stress about the shit you can't change"
Well WHAT THE FUCK.
If THAT SHIT that I CAN'T CHANGE still AFFECTS MY WHOLE LIFE and if I DON'T LIKE IT I think I will TRY TO FUCKING CHANGE IT."

I need my license. I need a new home. I need a job. I need to do this shit on my own.