It has already been voted with the printing of around 20 copies, 'the most duplicated and popularized image within the Social Bubble of the year: 2008'
Left to right: Thom Yorke, Merce Cunningham, and Jón þor (jónsi) Birgisson.
My dad and I talked on the internet today, and he said said that mom said to him that I wanted to come up there over Christmas Break. I don't remember saying that, But I suppose I would like to.
I always hesitate when it comes ot spending time with my father, because even though he is a fun person, some to most of the times, the place he lives is not very fun. Especially in the winter.
It makes me feel humble at times, very few times, But It's still good to know That I was in the presence of my father. But it's a battle. And it comes to being a descision for me. To give up my comfort to be with my dad, or to stay warm but be miserable.
[Either way I am in some way miserable].
I wish I did not have to make this descision. If only he had remained in the home I grew up in. It would still be slightly like giving up my comfort [because All of my belongings remain here]. But at least I would see my dad more often.
And the only reason I did not go up there During November is fear of what my father would say. He won't shut up about something that I don't really want to discuss. It's what basically killed me back in June.
It's all Luke's fault. If he had never said anything back in August of 2007, about me 'taking his friend', I would have never had to explain it to dad, and he would have never known. Never said anything. And It would have only been to myself. the whole time. And I would have been happy.
[I make typos when I am stressed and sad and angry, That last bit was fully riddled with them.]
And if I told him the truth about that something, I would have to discuss it with him. Which I don't want to do at the time. On that, mom would eventually find out. Not that she would never find out, But, I don't want her to find out now, at this point in time. She never cared anyway. She always seemed nonchalant about the whole thing.
So did I. And that's probably what destroyed it.
I always acted as that I didn't care one bit. I did.
I probably cared more than they did.
I know I cared more than they did.
I still do.
I'm sorry.
Unlike them, I truly am.
They are not sorry.
I kind of wish I didn't hide my true feelings about the whole thing.
I guess I was scared.
I still am.
Jrwalaskas (4:13:30 PM): If we try 2 make plans the 2 of U need 2 B on the same page WE CAN"T HAVE THE BS>or I well just send $ and not go throw the pain it brings 2 me.
He is talking about my brother and I. He knows very well that I cannot do that.
What kind of pain could it possibly bring him?
I wish I had a name Like Jónsi's. I guess Faith is still a pretty okay name.
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